It is my final day of holidays today. The looming fate of studying a film which I have very little taste for, Ridley Scott's Blade Runner, is weighing heavily of my spirits. I don't want to have to sit outside in the cold and eat my lunch. I don't want the children younger than me to push me as I walk through the corridors.
But most of all I am conscious of the fact that I only have four months until the film I am making for my major work is due. I cant wait for this year to be over, however getting there sends me into panic and stress.